hmmm. back from school after GP paper. it suck. but what can i do..? tell me.

haven been replying baby's msg-es. i dont know if i am angry or what. but i just dont feel like doing so, until aft GP pp. hai.

i'm having some flu and terrible blocked nose. and it's awful. my voice is like so damn man now &&that it is so blardie horrible laaa..=X

having chinese pp1 tmr. hmmm. should not be too big a problem. nway, shall go grab smth to eat, then study and sleep!

nway nway, during gp pp, i was actually thinking alot la. so much that i could hardly squeeze any gp content out from my small brain. arghh. the thoughts of us quarrelling, over smth not worth it, and the thought of leaving and all. it is so so so.. okay. i know in the midst of exam i shudnt be doing this, but what can i even do when the heart is not in the right mood. how would i have the mood to do the exam.

maybe you should have known those words hurt.
maybe you
should have known it earlier.
&&then i wont have the chance to get
hurt,
or you wont have the chance to hurt me, time and time again.
maybe
you should have known,
but you never did. or it was too late..

i always know cryg in frnt of you is hard, i knew it, and you made it worse.
cryg on your shoulders doesnt make me any better, and you never knew why.
maybe it's time i should really not care about IT. besides, from my mom's pt of view,
it's a mistake right from the start for us to be tgt..

okay. they just flowed out. for no particular reason, for no specific someone. they just flowed, my tears. stressed? stressed for being not stressed? worried for being not worried? i am only less than 48 hours away from my GP paper. and i haven prepared for GP, i admit. because i think there's no way i can start to prepare now. even if i dont do well this time. it's gonna be all my fault, i didnt prepare well enough. and following GP pp will be my chinese pp. oh well. wth. chinese. used to be one of my top subjects, but now.. =X i cant imagine myself doing chinese pp. it's gonna be like -ohmygawd!

i am so sorry. i cant take it now. it's all too hard on me. i know everyone's gg thru the same thing as me, but i cant take it any longer. it's so tiring, so tough! i wish i hadnt chose this path at all. i wish i didnt come to jc at all. i wish it all hadnt happened! i just wish... and they never came true.

ruth, it's nt easy. i sounded so dumb, having told u so many things, and now, it all doesnt work on me. wth. i thought i can get thru this period of time, i thought, but i cant. it's really very tough. i wish i can just turn away from everything, from anything, from anyone, including you and him. i feel so stupid now. because, i'm only worrying now, && that i have only less than 48 hours to start mugging real hard for these two papers. girl.. to stay strong and dont give up&& finally finish it with many support out there... does that work even in my race?

=(

i'll always look back, says:
spell "stressed" in the opposite way!! ((:
MS.FANGFANG`o5 - ; stubborn .THIS IS ALL ABOUT YOU AND ME; theEMPTINESS , within me ; says:
it doesnt work.
MS.FANGFANG`o5 - ; stubborn .THIS IS ALL ABOUT YOU AND ME; theEMPTINESS , within me ; says:
desserts isnt sweet..
MS.FANGFANG`o5 - ; stubborn .THIS IS ALL ABOUT YOU AND ME; theEMPTINESS , within me ; says:
nt anymore..
i'll always look back, says:
hahahaha
i'll always look back, says:
yes it is!!
sweeter than stress
i'll always look back, says:
hahaha (:



MS.FANGFANG`o5 - ; stubborn .THIS IS ALL ABOUT YOU AND ME; theEMPTINESS , within me ; says:
i regretd tellg u all those stuffs.
MS.FANGFANG`o5 - ; stubborn .THIS IS ALL ABOUT YOU AND ME; theEMPTINESS , within me ; says:
it doesnt work for me, idoubt they even worked for u.
MS.FANGFANG`o5 - ; stubborn .THIS IS ALL ABOUT YOU AND ME; theEMPTINESS , within me ; says:
it makes me sounds lik a fool.
MS.FANGFANG`o5 - ; stubborn .THIS IS ALL ABOUT YOU AND ME; theEMPTINESS , within me ; says:
knowg it doesnt help, i still wanna try.
i'll always look back, says:
nonononono!!
i'll always look back, says:
CIFANG YOU ENCOURAGED ME TO GO ON. YOU GOTTA KEEP GG ON TOOOOOOOOOOOO/
ITS LIKE A RACE DN GIVE UP!! FINISH IT!!! DEN FUN AWAITS YOU!!
i'll always look back, says:
ITS NOT THE TYM T GIVE UP OKAYEEEEEEEE!! IM SUPPORTG U ALWAYS!!
MS.FANGFANG`o5 - ; stubborn .THIS IS ALL ABOUT YOU AND ME; theEMPTINESS , within me ; says:
its nt as if all the support help.
MS.FANGFANG`o5 - ; stubborn .THIS IS ALL ABOUT YOU AND ME; theEMPTINESS , within me ; says:
its gettg so tiring each day


i'll always look back, says:
so now its not enough tym or..?
MS.FANGFANG`o5 - ; stubborn .THIS IS ALL ABOUT YOU AND ME; theEMPTINESS , within me ; says:
nope.
MS.FANGFANG`o5 - ; stubborn .THIS IS ALL ABOUT YOU AND ME; theEMPTINESS , within me ; says:
thr's time for me,
i'll always look back, says:
hmm..... then its.........................
MS.FANGFANG`o5 - ; stubborn .THIS IS ALL ABOUT YOU AND ME; theEMPTINESS , within me ; says:
i dont know.
MS.FANGFANG`o5 - ; stubborn .THIS IS ALL ABOUT YOU AND ME; theEMPTINESS , within me ; says:
i'm jus nt prepared for this.
i'll always look back, says:
hmmm,if its not tym den i guess ur on the right track/ all u lack is confidence and yeah.... POWER!!
i'll always look back, says:
ha
i'll always look back, says:
BELIEVE YOURSELF.
i'll always look back, says:
NoNO

i'll always look back, says:
TRUST ME TO TRUST YOU TO TRUST ME TO TRUST YOU TO TRUST YOURSELF!! now,CHEERS AND WE ARE ABOUT TO EMBARK ON A PLEASANT JOURNEY TO PROMOS!!
i'll always look back, says:
XD

have been kinda tired these few days. =X nway, listen, promos is like only 2 days away.. and i am afraid, afraid that i am not worried. it suck big time la. i get emo so easily these days. and i cant imagine what i will become during the exams. i just wish everyth just get by. i wish time could fly faster.. ='(

i wanna mug mug mug and MUG! i am so gonna get myself promoted. i need to get promoted too..=X

to my dearest ruth, i know you aint feeling good, but there's always more time for you to work even harder yea? trust me, trust yourself... you can make it.! after o levels, you can take the long awaited break that u always wanted. ruth, u cant just give up now, or let yourself hang loose on the ceiling. this is the time you need to work extremely hard. the same thing applies to me as well. i am trying to take things easy. well, i know, i believe everything will turn out RIGHT! JIAYOUS!!! =)

PS;
i wanna laugh laugh laugh..
i wanna LAUGH wit you;
i wanna smile smile smile..
i wanna SMILE for you;
i wanna live live and LIVE for you..
baby,
tell me it's gonna end soon;
tell me i will get through;
tell me time will get by;
tell me all about it..
&&tell me you wont let go..

okay. i fetched baby home on friday. yups. then after that i did some maths at his house, then jiu home-d le. a short and sweet day. (:

was supposed to study ytd. haha. but ended up talking to that ass. xP haha. hmmm. was out for breakfasst, then went skcc, ball-ed a while, and then we jiu go his house change. intended to go bugis. haha. but but.. yea. haha. hmmmm. nway, we were talking at his house, looking at his photos! haha. so funny la.. hmmmm. okok. he's so gonna kill me. haha. =X after that, i home-d at ard 8 plus.

went to bed early la, in fact, i dozed offf....=X oops! HAHA!
hmmm. gonna meet him later to go develop photos, then meet ty to study! haha.
and tmr maybe meeting my sis go shopping..=) haha.

hey, i needa blog!

firstly, cheng's away alr. to shanghai. (:
nway things are okaye now. i mean, things should always be. yea. promos cmg, and i am like only starting to mug, tell me i still have the time to catch up. =x okay. many many things cmg up after promos, first on the list will be project work. it suck big time! oh well, WHATEVER!

i needa get alot of things too. baby just got his pay, oh god, pls let him guess what i need la. HAHA! okaye. we'll be meeting tmr, out to bugis i guess. haha. but i have to study in the morning. hmmmm..

off now.
take care ppl,
with love!

I Promise
by Stacie Orrico

Will I always be there for you?
When you need someone,
Will I be that one you need?
Will I do all my best to, to protect you?
When the tears get near your eyes
Will I be the one that's by your side?
Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Will I take tender care of you?
Take your darkest night and make it bright for you
Will I be there to make you strong and to lean on?
When this world has turned so cold
Will I be the one that's there to hold?
Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will
Yeah
And I love you more every day
And nothing will take that love away
When you need someone
I promise I'll be there for you (there for you)
I promise

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will
And I promise (and I promise)
I promise (oh I promise you)

I will be there when you call me (when you call me)
I promise (I promise)
I promise I will

就是这个样子的。。。
为什么他不能够多一点点地细心？
为什么他不能够多一点点地关心我？
为什么他不能够多一点点地问候我？
为什么他不能够多一点点地爱护我？
为什么他不能够多一点点地珍惜我？
为什么。。。
总是要等到失去后才会后悔，
才懂得学会珍惜对方？

只是要求你对我更好一点很过份吗？
只是希望你能体贴一点点很难吗？
只是偶尔想在寂寞难过的时候能够有你陪伴，
累的时候有你的肩膀能依靠，
不开心的时候能够看到你，然后把烦恼都抛开，
即使是一下下，我也愿意。。。

难过又能怎样，他并不知道。
我又能怎样？

多么希望有时候的他可以是聪明，积极的。
这样一来，我也不必这么难过了。

为什么。。。
在他的面前，我哭不出来，
可是当他转头后
，泪好像好想好想全都要留下来似的。

心也伤透了，
痛也痛过了。
感情是否也会一样...
我好想问清楚，
问个明白。。。
可是最后我又能怎样能？

alright. today's post is specially for my baby.

i know all the things i have said, may have hurt you somehow, in one way or another. i may have hurt you so unwillingly. i know. it hurts at times. and you gotta know this, i never meant it that way... baby, sometimes i just wish that you were there with me all the time, even when i am at the lowest point in my life, i want you to be there, to keep me company, to listen to me.

i wanna thank you for hanging on, for bearing with my unreasonable-ness, my EMo-ing, my PMS-ing, and all the nonsense i have... THANKYOU! you know i have so much to say... =)

i want you to be happy, or at least remain like this now. promise me, nothing will go wrong anymore. after my exams && after your attachment, we can then go out officially! baby, i want you to know also that, i'll love you as much as you love me, and more each day, until one day the koalas hop and cows fly okay? everything will just go on...

me&& you;
with plenty of love;

was supposed to blog last last night, on the friday night, but well... =)

shall start from last wednesday. hmmmm. school as usual, except that mr yong wasnt ard for PE, so there's no softball..=X and i skipped PE nway, had my stupid cramps, and i took early leave. i swear that guy in the office just suck. he doesnt believe i had cramps. yes, i just dislike him. =X home-d and slept the whole day and night. i was really in pain, rolling on the bed and all. i admit it just suck to be a woman. =( i was complaining to amelia and baby the whole night.. haha. and poor them! well.. amelia still owe me an ELMO! and baby, HE OWE ME HIS LIFE LAAAAAA...
:DDD

thursday was supposed to be a longer day than usual. oh well. chinese lit lesson was cancelled, and then so i went home earlier. wanted to go PPC-ing, but baby told me not to. haha. nway, home-d and slept for like 2 hours or so, and i showere-d, and went out, all the way to LOYANG! okay, i went to fetch him from his workplace. =))

i studied on the way there, and i was at his house after that, with his mom. =) yea. stayed thr till around 9 plus, and he sent me home. okaye. listen here, i WENT ALL THE WAY TO LOYANG, AND PEI-ED HIM COME BACK TO SENGKANG. (:

friday was cool too. haha. was in school practically the whole day. =) had PALETTE'S LAST MEETING, and i am positive abt it. (: okaye. details are almost covered, and i am supposed to follow the medic ard on that day. =X hmmmm. ended everything at around 6, went to look for amelia and clara, and met ARIF, that idiot. =) he's just an ASS laaaaa... X) nway, i had my PPC in the afternoon! haha. oreo ice-blend. ((: well, bus-ed with clara, yeah. and met up with baby at 260. hmmmm. waited for gf2, and then we went cp. bought some stuff, and i PPC-ed again! haha. it's oreo-chocolate ice-blend! haha. back to 26o, and it rained. was crapping in the shelter la. after that sent gf2, and huimin to the bus stop, then baby sent me home. xP

we were on the phone for darn long. wanted to do some econs stuff, but ended up doing nothing, well, i INTENDED to do. HAHA! okay. and here comes my long-awaited SATURDAY! a date with my baby again. sorry to nic, for ps-ing. hmmmm. i owe u PPC okay? but we still have our EOY shopping!!! CHEERS!!!

met baby and nic in the morning for pratas. well, met gf and jeremy at the busstop, so we decided to go tgt. (: after prata, we went back to sk, baby wanted to go see doctor, but no luck. haha. went up to skcc and slack-ed for a while, before baby sent me home. showered, change and everything, and we went out! haha.

went PS, and met up with gavin,cheryl, pearly, dennis, xinping, and weifeng i think. okay, they are baby's friends, and a funny lot! nice meeting them. yeah. we went to watch LITTLE MAN! and it was funny, esp with this grp of ppl ard. X) yuppp. after the movie, we went FISH&CO. haha. TINGTING, DONT BE JEALOUS OKAY? HAHA! next time ask him bring you go okay? :DDD

(at FISH&CO.)
baby and the rest of the guys bought a birthday cake for XP, and it was really nice of them laaaa. nice brother-ship they have too. =)) hmmmmm. everything was just so right today. IT IS JUST SO PERFECT! nway, we tried to dedicate a song, best in me to
XP, but it was too late. we went orchard towers after that, yeah. went there to see ppl. haha. yeah. people. baby felt so disgusted, while i was still okay. haha. i mean, i am still okay as long as they dont come too near. haha.

train-ed back to sk after one whole day. yupps. was really tired, but i didnt regret cmg out with baby today. i saw how real he laughed and smiled today. i am happy cos he's happy. yes. just like this. (:

oh well, will be visiting his ahgong& ahma tmr aftnn. yupp. everything will be fine. (:

my dear,
it's been so true,
so relieving,
so COOL,
and so glad,
just to see the way you smiled tonight,
to see the YOU in you today.
they have been great companions,
i must admit.
i believe you have made the right choice.
i want you to stay the way you are,
when you are out with them,
i want you to be happy,
just like when you are tgt with me&them.
it will go on like this,
as long as you believe,
and you hold on.
trust me, baby.
our love wont just stop because it has to.
it will not stop,
just because the world stops revolving,
but my love for you
will only stop,
the day my heart stops beating.
i'll stay by you,
support all your decisions,
listen to you,
and love you for who you are!
this is something that will not change.
this is a promise,
made from the bottom of my heart.
cos u knoe i just love you so!

met up with baby on sunday afternoon. yeah. he pei-ed me study and then i pei-ed him to bugis. i mean pei-ed him to take train, then i went changi airport to meet up with ruth. i was so impatient laaa. =X nway, ms lee and mr ivan wu was there too! =) after that i took 27 back to sk.
met up with jeremy, huiwen and co. yupp. ended up balling at 260. baby came back and find me lor. and then we home-d.

did my chinese compo! got sense of achievement okay. haha! amelia did it too! haha. ting.. where is yours? HAHA!
nway, was on the phone wit baby, then i went to bed le. a happy and fruitful weekend..(:

monday was horrible. hmmmm. that's ytd. =X
i didnt want to go school so badly. it just suck so much, except for the fun part where i can hang out and tok nonsense with my clique..(= we played softball during PE lesson! haha. and had the stupid chinese lit test. oh well, it's over alr..so not worth mentioning. (smile)

baby came to fetch me after school! yupp. then we bus-ed back to sk. i think there this teacher on board also. he keep peeping at us laaaa... HAHA! TTM lor... eeeEK! yeah. went skcc and met gf2, sam and ryl. after that went 26o. ball-ed for only a while la. then it rained very heavily when the guys wanted to play full court. so we went kf lor. baby had his dinner there, while i had my hot milo.

after dinner, me, baby, jason and jeremy pei-ed gf2 wait for her missed-27. haha. then we walked home. baby didnt feel too good. he was jealous/envious/uneasy or whatever-he-called-it. he didnt even talk to me and all. he attitude-d me! =(

yes, i was sad, and am still sad. he gave me the cold shoulders as if i did someth wrongly. he gave me the sense of insecurity. the one that i felt previously. he made me so afraid and all. he made me feel as if everything's gonna end in just a snap of fingers. he made me so worried-sick! ='(
he made me feel all these ways, and only to apologise after that. i couldnt help but feel sad. i know he's jealous because he care. i do...
that night itself, he came to my house here and apologised. i thought it was okay, and i'd feel better after the night. but i did not. =X was on the phone with him later in the night and i went to bed.

baby msg-ed me in the morning, and he wanted to send me to school. he was alr at my void deck alr, but my parents wanted to fetch me to school. so he had no choice. well, he didnt tell me in the first place either. hmmm. i didnt msg him the whole day until after lunch time. he was very sweet but i still told him i need to get over it la. it was just so duh laaa...=X

should be meeting him later, after his work, and hopefully, everything can clear. =)

nway, was in school as early as 0630 this morning to jog. yeah. though i only jogged 5 rounds, but it was an achievement alr. haha. i dont usually jog and esp so early in the morning...=X had a long day in school today. and my aunt finally came! whahahahahahaha!!! i am so freakg happy la! haha. okay. hmmm gonna do my wr now. hopefully, i can complete someth by tonight. (:

OH MY GOD!
i have said, SATURDAYS are the nicest days of all in my life... X)

i woke up early today, and did part of my geog essay. hmmm. N, i did homework okaye...=)) and then i got ready and went to his house to STUDY again. -_-'' i studied my chinese lit book, and completed 2 out of 3 scenes! great achievement, anyway. (:

i hang ard there until 3pm, where jason and us left for town. hmmmm. not really town too. haha. was supposed to go for movie, but ended up shopping. haha. okay. baby treated me to some weird ice cream, and he bought me a fake toy rose! HAHA. but i still love it, i do. (: after that, we went to take neoprints!!! hmmmm. i am just so HIGH today! haha. there's this picture of us kissing! HAHA. okay. this sounds very wrong, but but....

(whatever)

i am happy with the way we are, and am not gg to mind how ppl look at us and all. i had a really wonderful saturday today. i bought earrings for my sister, and of course, myself too! (: this means new earrings for school! hmmmm. my next target will be a new tote bag, and a new pair of shoes... :DDD

baby sprained his ankle at 260. i am not-so so worried. =(

gg airport tmr to fetch ms pey! HAHA. okay. would most prob be studying tmr. i have chinese lit test on monday. i hope to see baby tmr, since that he's not working. because i know after tmr, it will be another long period of time before we can enjoy ourselves this much. my exams are coming, tell me about it. exams just suck the hell outta me!

have been missing contact with alot ppl. i am so sorry to everyone. pardon me. sometimes,i just wish to have more time... =X

RUTH! you gonna mug hard alright? i may not always be there for you, but i am just a call away. :)

AMELIA! i know no matter how much i tell you, and how real you can feel about this, i know the feelings are different. but but.. i still wish for you to be happy! hmmm. i hope to be the one bringing joy to your life, even if it's sharing with you everything that happened between me and my baby! i guess you know what i mean, and how painful it will be when all will end. i guess you will be the one left there, worrying for me when someth happened like after a period of time.. awww.. nway, i am just so happy and fortunate that i wont want to think that far. life has been so far so good for me. tell me it will last...(:

S, my TWIN! thank you for being so special...;)

N, my GF2! i have so much to say, but i guess thank you sums all up! the night is still young, the days are still long! 060906, i'll rmb! and all our ppc-ing, our s-ing, thai express-ing, and all our end-year-shopp-ing!!!! oh no, you just rock so much!!! XD

back from school.. =)
to my girlfriend, NICOLETTE! i did STUDY okaye... =)
met amelia to go school to STUDY. yeah. STUDY. hmmm. i did geog essay part1, then i realised i didnt bring my notes laaa... =X hmm. apparently, i cant finish the rest. and i did my chinese cheng yu ws. 3 of them, and i handed them in alr. =) okaye. great achievement! haha. :D but i took like a few hours to do all that la. today's palette meeting was horrible and pathetic.! only 5-6 of us! oh gosh...=X shouldnt have been there too.. wasted my time!

we left school at ard 4pm, and headed to hg mall! made our stickers!!! haha. okay. childish. and after that we went shopping for hair accessories! haha. i bought many clips laaa... haha. orange clips, to be exact. =)) hmmmm. and i went back to sr to jog. well. met up with cheng. jog only 3 rounds. =X we went ppc-ing after that! haah. i had my oreo ice-blend! OMG! it's so nice..XD

alright. baby's gyming now i guess. and tmr we are gg out! yeahh....!! i think we are gg for movie or something. nway, gonna finish up my geog essay and perhaps do wr in the morn tmr. =) then i have to study tmr night and on sunday for my cha guan...=X oh my. i cant wait for tmr!!! it's a SATURDAY.

thank god, it's finally a saturday of the week.
i love you&&
miss you.

alright. i skipped blogging ytd.
pw meeting just suck big time! i never liked this subject in the first place. with such lousy grouping, i doubt i can ever make it. dont tell me all the shit that i can do it and all. fcuk!

went back sk and slacked. yeah. and went to meet baby. i fetched him from the bus stop..(: oh well, i did my part okay. stop complaining. XD

went to his house, waited for that slow poke to get changed and all.. haha. and we went 260. played ball a lil. haven been really playg ball la. gets tired so easily, and believe it or nt, i cant seem to play on anymore. no more passion..=X i went home alone after that. watched jin san shun! =))

ytd was a rather nice day. except the fact that amelia cheated me to the tea chapter! and learnt how to appreciate tea, and brew it.! OHHHH...!!! wth. fangfang brewing chinese tea! nway, had maths lecture in the morning, chinese lessons after that, and then went for lunch with amelia, clara and yeeting at hg mall. yeah.

we were late, but someone was later! eeEEk! =X i had all the fun i wanted to suan her. haha. well, just take it that i am MEAN. i dont care. it's just this way, and it's gonna stay this way till i dont-know-when! i cant stand her in the first place, it's pointless to ask me not to be bothered in the first place. i am gg to play along till the end. for this, i wont give up! amelia, sorry but i can never be nice to her!

tea chapter is a nice place. i almost dozed off there. nway left for kovan at around 430pm. hmmm. met my gf, nic for thai express!!! haha. we had a talk. yeah. THANK YOU TO NICNIC!!! nway, she ordered a pineapple rice, and her red ruby! i had soft shell crab rice and shared tom yum soup with gf! =)) headed back to 260 with NIC. met up with baby, and i accompanied gf to walk to her school. after that met baby on the way again. and i went his house to watch vcd. haha.

we watched re-cycle laaa... it's not scary lor...instead, we were crapping throughout la, guessing the next scene and all. haha. baby kept me company the whole night. even when his mom came back la. haha. after the show, we continued to watch the channel 8 for a while, and i left home at around10 pm. oh well. mah mom's pissed with me! arggghhh!!! i cant be bothered by her anymore. why cant she let me have what i want... is that too much to ask for, mom?

last night was really memorable. haha. sweet and nice. nic made my day, and then baby! oh well, i love both, but baby a lil more..xD

ps. it was just as sweet as honey.
honey attracts ants.
you are the honey;
i am the ant.
i'll stick to you,
love you more each day,
and never leave you.

since i have like nothing to do, im gonna blog everyday for the whole of this week i guess..=)
went lunching and balling with gf. yupp. had kfc for lunch! and i met alot ppl laaaa.. haha. shiwen, wahyuna. hmmm..=)) after that yaqi came and we left for skcc. yea. quite a few ppl there la. yea. and we ball-ed for sometime.

sorry to NIC, SAM, and especially RYL! i dont know why la, but somehow it just pissed me off so much that i had to show attitude on the court. i am so sorry!! FANGFANG IS SO SORRY LAAAAAAAA....=(

nway, thank you to NIC, for your ice-cream! shall go earthquak-ing sometime yea? :DDD

after skcc, we left for 260. oh well, had my day there. haha. was laughing my head off man! nway, left for home after that. i took abt half an hour just to walk home..=X hmmm. call is slow or wat, i dont care. but it was really weird to walk alone again. baby was out with mom to look for houses. and i guess they are gg to settle at amk. =(

it's alr the mid of the hols. which means it is gg to end. and i haven touched my books for the past few days. this is bad. BAD. am gg school later for PW, and hopefully, i hope it doesnt ruin my day.

dear god, let my everyday be only SATURDAYS.
that is when i am able to spend my whole day with him,
catch up with him a lil,
and to see how much he has changed.
most imptly, to let him know how much i am gg thru,
missing him alone.
i miss him to the thousand and 2bits!

last saturday was still okay. at least things between us are fine now. (:
thank you to all who were worried for me.
PER, YUZHEN, ROU, CHENG, AHMA, YEETING, YINGLING AND ALL THE OTHERS!
i spent my saturday balling, vballing and bballing. yupps. and that night, he sent me home. X)

i stayed at home the whole day of sunday, wanted to mug, but ended up watching vcds! haha. oh well, it was rather addictive laa.. and ytd's workshop was really horrible la.! arghhh! damn freakg hot~! nway, it's over!

and baby treated me to ice cream!!! haha. we shared an earthquake! haha. and he cut his hair! awww... it's super ugly! haha. hmmmm. and he's moving house soon ler.. to amk. =X nway, gg out to lunch and ball soon! with huiwen and yaqi!! haha.

with love.

our 1st month was just a very simple night out at some void deck. because i had my training and so on. yeah. i made him a card, and gave it to him before we left. was actually spending the night at some void deck and yeah. just like this. sometimes, i just wish for the opposite.

teachers' day celebration was rather horrible. hmm, at least to me. those who are supposed to come early, yes they did. and they left the earliest as well.. leaving all those dirty jobs for the unlucky souls to do. wtfish! if this is what you call a class, by all means. i dont even bother where you are heading to after school, but you should have at least brought back the things you brought to school, and not leaving practically everything for us to clear. ohmy, i dont call this a class. fuck off.

sorry for being so vulgar. but that just spoiled my day! went back to sk to meet rh &co. and we walked back to NC. nothing much happened i guess, except that i cried. =X i dont know what happened. i was so not myself. or it should be like this: i am so not myself even until now. ='( had pizza for lunch and i went to meet my sis at boon lay after that.

it was that 2 hours journey that can kill. if not for him, i'd have been dead by then. nway i was purely dumb! thankyou baby for accompanying me through half of the journey back phone. at least i had someone to talk to.

met up with baby &co. at cp when i reached there. and baby pulled me along to meet his mom! ohhhh... i was freaked out! well. that half an hour to forty five mins was really a torture. i seriously didnt know what to do. =X walked back home after that, with his mom at the back. yeahh. and that's all for the night.

met hw and di for sentosa-ing. we went to that tanjong beach la. and i was tanning there. yeahh. and i got super burnt. hmmm... at least i became much darker. =) came back in the afternoon to ball. yeah. balled till 7 plus and i headed home.

was actually kinda disappointed and sad and all that. had a not-so-good day and i thought would be able to meet him. but well. it went that way.. home-d and i tried so hard to cover myself up. i wasnt happy at all. i waited the whole night for his sms. only until 1030. he wasnt feeling too good also, but i wasnt there to share. am so sorry. i had enough of my lousy day. i wanted to ignore everyone, all his msges... but i felt worse. ='(

MR EMO,
GET THE HELL OUT OF ME!!!