i dont feel like bloggg tonight actually. but still, ALL will be fine soon. we tried, and are still trying. maybe we should just compromise? well, think about it, and perhaps it aint worth it at all. oh well..

nway, i really dont feel like blogg. i dont wanna share my love with anyone else! heh. it's the 30thapril today! LOL. first, happy happy months. second, its 5 days to my day. heh.

(:

lovelovelove;
i know you LOVEme!
sama-sama okaye?
:D

this if from QINGYUN's blog!

Boyfriends are like flowers to ladies i guess.
they always know how to make us happy.
no matter how similar they look.
no matter how little changes they make.
we never get sick of them.
but an additional beautiful packaging will be a PLUS-POINT.

who cares about how realistic we are.
no matter how much we deny that flowers are unpractical stuffs.
we still long to receive them.
similarly. we love to be SINGLE.
but we must face the fact that we would want to have a boyfriend by our side.
to stay with us.
to accompany.
to destroy the emptiness we feel. once in a while.
sadly. flowers weep.
but they will survive if we appreciate them.
take good care of them.

i believe that we should also put in as much effort as we can in a relationship to make it blossom. if we don't. it will die off.
just like how flowers weep.

idiot-ly. sometimes.
no matter how much effort we put in.
the flowers may still die.
just like how boyfriends do not appreciate their sweethearts.
shit them.

(:

hey girl, i hope you are doing fine.

SHARON & I.















TEAM SRJC.














LIZ ME EUNICE















TEAM SRJC.














TEAM SRJC. again.















BBQ AT PEAR's HOUSE.















UGLY.














TEAM SRJC.















WHERE IS WENDY??














WHAT HAPPENED TO WENDY??















JAC JG GERALDINE SARAH EUNICE.















CHERYL AND JANE.















OKAY NOW, WHERE IS WENDY AGAIN??















MISS KEY.














ME AND LIZ.














GERALDINE ME PEAR.















ONE-SIDED LOVE.














THEM.















THE ONE.














JG GERALDINE.














IT's ME!!!

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a long and tiring day ytd. or maybe the whole of last week?

i dont know.
everyone around me is telling me they are tired and very tired. who can i tell? sometimes i guess, its nt really how tired you are. and even if it is really how tired you are, you shouldnt just rub into others wound and perhaps just shut up for a day or two? no offence pls. but it really gets on my nerves when some ppl just keep buzzing at my ear, complaining to me how tired they get and without even considering what I, MYSELF is going thru. maybe before you wanna talk, please think?

alright. on the other hand, maybe it is my fault. because i am having my menses and my mood swings, but so what? it does give me the right to change my mood any-how, and i hope it doesnt concern you too much, but please! stop irritating me ssoooooo much. everyone, anyone can take it, can tolerate you, but not ME, okay. i am a BAD GIRL who doesnt even bothers to be nice to you. thats it. sometimes i feel that you should really think before you speak. i know you have hell lot of time, but you dont have to keep saying and saying and saying it all over again. and on the same issue, you dont have to tell me repeatedly, or you dont even have to go around the whole bloody school to tell everyone okay! stop being so *.

(phew~ i just needed to let out some things.)

to youYOU&you, to whoever is reading okay. it doesnt matter how bad your life is, it's the matter of choice you make to let you, yourself to feel better. you choose to be happy, you choose to be sad, and most importantly, you choose to be tired! life is all about making choices, isnt it? make the right choice, and live with it! you know it, you hold it, and you handle your own life better than anyone else.

YOU: thispost aint referring to you. stay cool, lovely. and i made a stupid decision to get angry and pissed over it. =( nway, i think HCI's no.13 is my idol! he's freakg tall and he got fouled OUT! hahahaha! but still, you are the perfect 10! in my heart. <3

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i feel so lonng! haha. i mean like so long haven been blogg. (:

nway, was at the hospital on sunday. visiting. and monday had training. yeah. training. i swear monday sucked like mad. but still, i am proud of myself because i ran NINETEEN ROUNDS on the track purrrr-leease!!!! heh. YOU, be proud of ME! haha. i was dead beat nway.

had my chi lit pp and its okay i guess. nway, had the motivation talk with edgar tham. heh. he's such a cool guy! haha. we had our cars washed! and it was really nice la. to be able to talk things out, to hear nice things and be encouraged by ur teammates. it mademe feel so close and all the more i wouldnt want to let go any more.! the thing lasted till like 8pm? haha. like so late. and somebody waited for me like a dumbdumb! haha. ohh well, we had our times la. it was a simple night out there, but guess what? my sis saw us!!! hahahahaha!

and traing today again. i dont know why. just feel so blaarrrdie tired la! i can just sleep anywhere caaan! awww. im running out of energy. i need bananas! haha.bananas in exchange for fruit tarts okay! haha. a long day tmr. still, i gotta hang on, cos more to come this friday. game with vjc. a tough battle awaits us. go, team sr!

i swear i never did so many shots in my other days before!

first thing i am proud of is my minimum of 50free throw shots. okay. i swear i have never done so much shooting before. i spent like practically the whole day doing shooting! =X and i hope my efforts will pay off, somehow in the nationals. thank you for picking balls for me, YOU!
:D

we won NATIONAL JC~
heh.
37-15 i guess.

thr's something u didnt know. i broke down after ytd's game. it was really horrible. the fear, the anxiety over everything, and all. before the game we were all so nervous. during the warmup, i even scolded my team. it was like all-so-horrible-kind-of-thing! i cried before the game, was crying during the game and after the game i just broke down like nobody's business! they said i played well, but i didnt feel too much. the fell i had, i could have run faster to save that ball, you see.. it was all so scary! even worse than my nightmares! thr are alot of things i could have done in the game. i didnt do my defence well, and i failed all that i could have done better! i didnt feel too good even though we won. i dont know. still, it was a morale booster for our team. next cmg up is vjc, though chances are low, we still hope to give a good fight. SRJC TEAM, WIN!

Labels: to win or lose, we are still a TEAM

非你莫属

懂得让我微笑的人
再没有谁比你有天份
轻易闯进我的心门
明天的美梦你完成
整个宇宙浩瀚无边的尽头
每颗渺小星球
全都绕着你走

爱我非你莫属
我只愿守护
由你给我的幸福

爱我非你莫属
也许会笑着哭
但那人是你
所以不怕苦

懂得让我流泪的人
给的感动一定是最深
在我心中留下伤痕
你同时点亮了星辰

看那麽多相遇偏偏
只和你天造地设般产生奇迹
哦我心的缝隙
我想除了你
任谁也无法填补这空虚

you always asked me to listen and uds. i thought you'd try to too.
am i like asking for too much alr? if yes, just tell me so.
maybe friends are really good company when you are alone, yes, i agree.
you said i was too busy with my stuff. maybe you were too?
put myself in your shoes, now that i know all abt you.
maybe you shud try my shoes too.
i just wish for everyth to be okay. tell me abt it alright.

my fren taught me,
iloveyou is to be said only when you mean it,
and you are willing to do smth abt it.

its hard to tell you that imissyou, iwanttoseeyou,
and iwanttoholdyou.
because we both dont have the time,
and i dont usually say such things.

god, send me my hopes, not-dashed-hopes.
thank you.

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Nancy Peters is a sports psychologist from my school.
and YOU refers to YOU!
[:

today is a great day! for you, you and ME! heh.
alright. i love mah ballers. really. every single one even the one that you all are disturbing me with laaaaa... okaye. i love EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU! :D

from you all, i learnt how to relax and stay coool;
through all of you, i've learnt what is team spirit;
because of all of you, i am able to stand up once more;
for you all, i am willing to fight again!
and with you all, we will not give up, and try harder each time!
we'll rest well, and prepare for our battle next week. no losing, but winning! because it's all up thr in the mind for us to decide if we want to win or lose! come on, my dear girls, i hope we can really strive and at least make this whole journey worthwhile! JIAYOUS!

"Yeah.. you must motivate them okay. Come on, my baby's the best le..
Right.. You've been striving for so long.. you can do it de right.. okay my dear
fangfang.. you always tell me to look things positively right.. you must too ok,
baby.. push yourself, like you always did. okay. if you really
like and enjoy the game, do it for yourself, and you'll truely like the game..
baby, no use making yourself mad at your team. it's them who are going to
play w you, whether how the story ends, it depends on you and your team. okay my dear, i know how you feel, i really do. just that im not you, thats it. baby,
your jc basketball life is ending soon, make it the best ending for
yourself okay.. i'll be standing at a corner saying that im really
proud of you. you are really not that used-to-be fang, you are a very
responsible vcap.. you know.. hmmm. you gotta give it your best shot okay my
dear.."

that was from my beloved baby! :]
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"where did my cifang go? i know how it feels too, but cifang, rmb that
there'll be the good days in bball too! tell yourself you can and WILL get out
of your rut. that you will overcome whatever you feel you're doing wrong. i
know. coz im in the process of slowly picking up and pushing my limits again.
tell yourself you CAN. and go for it. no matter how tired, no matter how lousy you think you are performing, just go. you know you deserve the main5 with your skill. now all that's left is dont give up! overcome your mental barrier. everything is cause and effect. examine why and how you have come to this and do something! tonight, rest well. tmr will be another better day. give your best and redeem yourself during tmr's match. so rest well, tc, rest early and have a good night. i hope to see a newly recharged YOU tmr! "

and that was from my beloved twin sister!
HEH. you know i love you plenty too!
:D

oh well, now that i feel kinda more comfortable with the team and with everyone, i am happy. or HAPPY! okay. whatever. i think today's a lousy day for me, for myself and for I. maybe it was just one of the lousiest day in the week.

there's nothing that can go inside my head(or my heary!) which i hope it did or should have gone in there. nothing, please. not that i can perform, or maybe i never performed at all, but its just that i left my heart somewhere. uh, at i-dont-know-where! i need to regain myself quick, or at least i think i shouldnt let ppl like sharon, my twin, and others who really cared. i dont know why everyone is telling me that we have a good chance in getting into the second round.. i seriously dont la. find my heart back and maybe i can uds. let me off for once.

friendly with ny last wed i think. nono. its friday. aiyah. cant rmb la. i thought i played well that day.. well, i THOUGHT. and had friendly w seniors, which obviously i didnt really like and played much. friendly with ac today. okay. tell me i suck and i should just quit on the spot.! i dont like the feeling, my dear ppl. i hate it. how much can the sports psychologist do to bring me back.? how much can she really help me like at this point of time? i really hope she can la! i dont want to be left there struggling for myself, on my own. the feeling suck.

:(

common test next week, and the nationals start next friday. first game most prob with njc. okay. shall talkabt it again. not tonight. im tired. nancy peters said we must think of the positive thoughts from primary school. okay. i only know one of the best thing in my whole life was meeting you, and meeting you and YOU! :)

wonderful night please.
i feel like shit,
&&sharon owes me a hugg!

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i tried very hard each time to understand you, understand what is going on, but i failed to this time. have you tried?

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yeah. i am just a godamnitpieceofshit laaaa..
yes, im pissed, you are pissed too, and so what.
i dont understand, and will never understand you. i know you'll see this, but i just think its a lil too over for him to just follow you all the way back to sk and send me home. i really dont uds why and how on earth he would do that when he's like so concern of his face and all that. i know he is your good fren, i dont deny and i dont mind. i mean, you have your best friend and i do also. i dont dislike him, compared to maybe some other frens of yours. but can you pls see me as your girlfriend? why do i need my bf's fren to send me home tgt with my bf? i just dont feel good. why not u see it this way, i bring my gf to send you home with me? how would you feel, my dear? and you always dont know what to say and how to talk to me.. it's always the same thing.

baby, have you ever walk out on your frens like you did to me the other time? have you ever flared up at your frens like you always do to me? have you ever treat me better when ur frens are ard.? i dont know, maybe you did and i didnt realise. well, maybe i was too insensitive. i dont know. but i seriously know she made my night worst!maybe if i wasnt engaged in that heated conversation, i wouldnt have ignored you and allow my thoughts to run wild and all. yeah maybe.

till the next time.

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a great day i had ytd.

:]

went out in the morning, first to upper thomson there to have my beloved pratas! heh. then we headed down to bugis, to look for my sportsbra! we bused dwn to little india and trained there. yeahh. caught smth real interesting at bugis there. will blogg the photos soon okaye. (:

after that we trained to town and got my sb there instead. =X so we walked ard at town laa. yeahh. was looking for my B but then for some reasons, i didnt but my B laaaaa~ =( we strolled along town and finally, bus-ed down to feast @ east. dined there and we had alot of fun laaa. took many many pictures. and ate alot! heh. wanted to look for peter, but he left alr. so we went back after dining. bused back to sengkang, and we walked home. heh. took a longer route and we walked in the middle of the roads and took some pictures again la. haha. it's like so funny laa. nway, i had a great day with my darlingg.! =)

so there goes my second school week. and im somehow feeling the tension alr. next week i'll study alr i guess. no more going out, i dont care what's in and not, what's the trend and what's not le. maybe its time i should really focus.

it's cmg so quickly, i dont even know how to react.

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