"baby, i had a very simple, sweet and
lovely one year celebration okay! i love you la! thank you for sampling my baked
rice; thank you for tolerating with me while i game; thank you for sharing the
shocolaty treats with me or it wouldnt taste as nice; thank you for working so
hard.. ; thank you for bringing me to marina for steamboat; thank you for
letting me sleep in your arms all the way back to sengkang; thankyou for the
last drip of eyedrop; thank you for sending me home so late at night, thankyou
for being you &letting me being myself when with you! happy one year! it's
really wonderful to have you to dote on me, to love me, and to accept me for who
i am! ILOVEU!"

29JULY2007
0115hours

"dont thank me baby, you should pat
your shoulder, know why? cos you earn it. you made me wanna take care of you;
cos you are so not independent. hmmm. dont thank me. we are a fated couple. ya,
i thank god for the fate. this one year has its humidity conditions, but we have
walked through, together... that's a really long one you know!... see, here we
are standing strong.. im so proud of us.. our aim is eternity, not only years..
okay. long way to strive.. baby, lets walk together okay.."

29JULY2007
0125hours

"my dear boy! happy one
year!(again,) i <33 you la! this one year has been so eventful,
&went by just so quickly. aww. but i'm sure there's more to come! i want you
to be sure of yourself in my heart, cos there'll only be you! i love you, not
cos of the things you did, but for you being you, yourself! i love you, G,
that's something i can never lie about, believe me. good night, &with all my
<3>

fang-
<33

30JULY2007
0000hours.

“我从来都没把你当罪人看待。决定暂时分开，不是因为恨你，而是因为恨自己。我…”说到这里，大奶彬发现天才庆的眼眶冒出泪水。“我恨自己，因为觉得自己很笨。知道你出卖我之后，竟然只气那么一下子，过后就是担心，害怕，很害怕你离开我。怪自己没好好陪你，让你觉得寂寞，你才会…为什么我那么没用呢？为什么我不能像其他男人一样，果断地和你一刀两断呢？想了好久，我终于明白了。你对我太重要了。我不能没有你。无论你怎么伤害我，我都能原谅你。因为，我太爱你了。”

damn! that is so sweet laaa~ LOL.

nway, i have my happiness too!
went to pet safari ytd with darl. and that pup is ssooooo cute la! i want him! :(
and we had steamboat at marina. well, the food's nt bad, but i wasnt feeling well la! and the bus's soooo crowded! i slept soundly all the way home. (:

LOVES.

exams cmg. will be cmg less often. =)
nway, its saturday tomorrow, and its a special day! to me, and to you.

<33
and that monday will make us one year old.

PS. ILOVEYOU!

"Even if I had all the
time in the whole world for you, I wouldnt want you to see me upset."

爱爱爱-方大同

在 那裏精彩 第一個桃花醉
誰在 那裏典賣第一支紫玉釵
我在 看着你見怪更怪
見過電影裏面人家的海
更想去看海
吵過冤家的愛更像叫愛

你哭起來 我笑起來 都爲了愛愛愛
有一天翻開辭海 找不到愛
花不開 說 GOODBYE 還是更暢快
愛 還是會期待
還是覺得孤單太失敗
我愛故我在

找到愛 幸福的人肯不肯躲起來
存在 寂寞的人能不能站起來
我在 等着你被你XX
看過小説的人家等待
不習慣等待
吵過冤家的愛更像叫愛

你喊出來 我停下來 都爲了愛愛愛
有一天翻開辭海 找不到愛花不開
說 GOODBYE 還是更暢快
愛 還是會期待
還是覺得孤單太失敗
我愛故我在

回不去那天那裏的真愛
買不起那件 可愛的名牌
你悶起來 我笑起來 可以愛
會不會整個時代只有一個告白
誰不愛 噢 不存在

不明不白 不分好歹都爲了愛愛愛
有一天翻開辭海 找不到愛花不開
說 GOODBYE 還是更暢快愛
還是會期待
還是覺得孤單太失敗
我愛故我在

uptight.
upset.

who cares nway.

it sucks to go home alone, but it seemed to you that i chose it that way, and to bus home with a longer route.

no one can handle me,
not any of my mood swings,
not myself, not you.

AND...

soon, it'll be our one year anniversary.
:]

exams ended.

had seoul garden and baby had new 3G chocolate phone for a celebration.

amelia came my house to bake cookies this afternn. heh. and i made my cheesecake. and baby waited for me 4 hours caaaaan! haixXx.

:(:(:(

tmr's will be a better day. like tingting, i'll believe in a rainbow after the rain!
hehs. and sat's transformer with yz and xy! :D

Labels: tiredxXx

NC BALLERS.

just finished hopping ard some friends' pages, and it made me think, real lot. the past: the beginning, the past trainings i had with them, the team we call one, the tears, the laughter, the chalets, the bbq, the gathering, the skipping, the crazy running, the times WE all spent together. do they still hold anything? i miss them! i really do.

some of us are fated to really do well, some not really, but why am i feeling so up-side-down of what i am now.? yes, im envious, who's not.? and not only that, i am so proud to be one of yours whom you call a friend, in times of need-or-no-need..

i dont regret making the choice to stay, i dont regret joining it right from the start despite all the hard times and tears i shed! thinking of you all makes me miss everything all over again from head to toe laaa!

it seems that we all have left and grown up; it seems that we all have met our new cliques, our new environment and all.. still, the memories had been deeply etched in my heart.

meet up soon alright, i miss every and every single bit out of you guys!
:(

i guess the last two weeks of june hols were wasted la. i had been spending too much time slacking. didnt have the mood to study, and i know, i shall deserve what i get when the results come out. was balling, visiting sentosa and all.

caught shrek3 (finally) w baby during the holidays. yay. and now my exams alr more than halfway through. :] left with two more papers cmg wednesday i think. heh. and after that i gonna slack again. hmm. after friday's paper, met up with baby for dinner at long john silver. okay. call that a date, pleassse. i haven met up with him for OMG3 1/2 days! i had my hersheys chocolate cake? heh.

and ytd was our beloved 11 MONTHSARY! heh. didnt do much though. all i knew was that i woke amelia up early in the morning and she did straightening for my hair. thanksthanks! heh. and sorry too. :( i felt so guilty laa. and girl, talk to your mom nicely laaaaaaaa! haiyoxXx.

met up with baby after that. bought things for his cousin then we went his uncle's shop to eat. :) left for sengkang after that and it was already evening. went to popular and library to read la! heh. and left for a quick dinner and homed. a short/long and sweet/lovely 11monthsary!

nway, movies tmr, again, i guess.

那是一個非常寧靜而美麗的小城﹐有一對非常恩愛的戀人﹐他們每天都去海邊看日出﹐晚上去海邊送夕陽﹐每個見過他們的人都向他們投來羨慕的目光……

可是有一天﹐在一場車禍中﹐女孩不幸受了重傷﹐她靜靜地躺在醫院的病床上﹐幾天幾夜都沒有醒過來。白天﹐男孩就守在床前不停地呼喚毫無知覺的戀人﹔晚上﹐他就跑到小城的教堂裡向上帝禱告﹐他已經哭乾了眼淚。 　　

一個月過去了﹐女孩仍然昏睡著﹐而男孩早已憔悴不堪了﹐但他仍苦苦地支撐著。終於有一天﹐上帝被這個痴情的男孩感動了。於是他決定給這個執著的男孩一個例外。上帝問他﹕“你願意用自己的生命作為交換嗎﹖”男孩毫不猶豫地回答﹕“我願意﹗”上帝說﹕“那好吧﹐我可以讓你的戀人很快醒過來﹐但你要答應化作三年的蜻蜓﹐你願意嗎﹖”男孩聽了﹐還是堅定地回答道﹕“我願意﹗” 　　

天亮了﹐男孩已經變成了一隻漂亮的蜻蜓﹐他告別了上帝便匆匆地飛到了醫院。女孩真的醒了﹐而且她還在跟身旁的一位醫生交談著什麼﹐可惜他聽不到。 　　

幾天後﹐女孩便康復出院了﹐但是她並不快樂。她四處打聽著男孩的下落﹐但沒有人知道男孩究竟去了哪裡。女孩整天不停地尋找著﹐然而早已化身成蜻蜓的男孩卻無時無刻不圍繞在她身邊﹐只是他不會呼喊﹐不會擁抱﹐他只能默默地承受著她的視而不見。夏天過去了﹐秋天的涼風吹落了樹葉﹐蜻蜓不得不離開這裡。於是他最後一次飛落在女孩的肩上。他想用自己的翅膀撫摸她的臉﹐用細小的嘴來親吻她的額頭﹐然而他弱小的身體還是不足以被她發現。 　　

轉眼間﹐春天來了﹐蜻蜓迫不及待地飛回來尋找自己的戀人。然而﹐她那熟悉的身影旁站著一個高大而英俊的男人﹐那一剎那﹐蜻蜓幾乎快從半空中墜落下來。人們講起車禍後女孩病得多麼的嚴重﹐描述著那名男醫生有多麼的善良﹑可愛﹐還描述著他們的愛情有多麼的理所當然﹐當然也描述了女孩已經快樂如從前。 　　

蜻蜓傷心極了﹐在接下來的幾天中﹐他常常會看到那個男人帶著自己的戀人在海邊看日出﹐晚上又在海邊看日落﹐而他自己除了偶爾能停落在她的肩上以外﹐什麼也做不了。
這一年的夏天特別長﹐蜻蜓每天痛苦地低飛著﹐他已經沒有勇氣接近自己昔日的戀人。她和那男人之間的喃喃細語﹐他和她快樂的笑聲﹐都令他窒息。 　　

第三年的夏天﹐蜻蜓已不再常常去看望自己的戀人了。她的肩被男醫生輕擁著﹐臉被男醫生輕輕地吻著﹐根本沒有時間去留意一隻傷心的蜻蜓﹐更沒有心情去懷唸過去。 　　

上帝約定的三年期限很快就要到了。就在最後一天﹐蜻蜓昔日的戀人跟那個男醫生舉行了婚禮。
　　蜻蜓悄悄地飛進教堂﹐落在上帝的肩膀上﹐他聽到下面的戀人對上帝發誓說﹕我願意﹗他看著那個男醫生把戒指戴到昔日戀人的手上﹐然後看著他們甜蜜地親吻著。蜻蜓流下了傷心的淚水。
　　上帝嘆息著﹕“你後悔了嗎﹖”蜻蜓擦乾了眼淚﹕“沒有﹗”上帝又帶著一絲愉悅說﹕“那麼﹐明天你就可以變回你自己了。”蜻蜓搖了搖頭﹕“就讓我做一輩子蜻蜓吧……”



有些緣份是註定要失去的。愛一個人不一定要擁有﹐但擁有一個人就一定要好好去愛他。你的肩上有蜻蜓嗎﹖