christmas with him and another group of friends. yep. it was just so-so, the typical orchard-road-walk with your bf. that's all. butbut i had free mudpies! haha. thanks to my santa. :]

nway, i lost my butterfly earring on christmas. i wore it for the first time and it went missing. oh well.. he say he is gg to find me another pair! andand i change phone alr. haha. its nt really new but i like it. yepyepyep. samsung ultra slim edition. heh.

"cause i feel tt saying those wrds really do mean smthg

special for the person..so sae it when u rly mean it to.."

this is from ah rou's blog. i agree totally man, but i dont mind being generous to my girlfriends about such things. girl, dont feel guilty anymore! you have me. =)

maybe i am so different from any other girl out there, but i dont believe.
it's just the way i feel, you could have cared more like what you said you would.
we could have loved harder like what we said we would.
we could have our first christmas happily tgt, well, we could, and we should.

emotions. feelings.
do you care?

sheeeeeeeshx.

it;s christmas eve eve today,
happy merrymerry christmas!

when you say never, i'll say lie
when you say always, i'll say true
when you say love, i'll say you.

As life goes on I'm starting to learn more and more about responsibility
And I realize that everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out to apologize for things that
I've done things that haven't occurred yet
and things that they don't want to take responsibility for

I'm sorry for the times that I left you home
I was on the road and you were alone
I'm sorry for the times that I had to move
I'm sorry for the fact that I did not know
That you were sitting home just wishing we
Could go back to when it was just you and me
I'm sorry for the times I would neglect
I'm sorry for the times I disrespect
I'm sorry for the wrong things that I've done
I'm sorry I'm not always there for my sons
I'm sorry for the fact that I'm not aware
That you can't sleep at night when I am not there
Because I'm in the streets like everyday
I'm sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I'm so proud to call you my girl
I understand that there's some problems
And I'm not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can't apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
I'll be the reason for your pain
And you can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

I'm sorry for the things that he put you through
And all the times you didn't know what to do
I'm sorry that you had to go and sell those bags
Just trying to stay busy until you heard from dad
When you would rather be home with all your kids
As one big family with love and bliss
And even though pops treated us like kings
He got a second wife and you didn't agree
He got up and left you there all alone
I'm sorry that you had to do it on your own
I'm sorry that I went and added to your grief
I'm sorry that your son was once a thief
I'm sorry that I grew up way to fast
I wish I would of listened and not be so bad
I'm sorry that your life turned out this way
I'm sorry that the feds came and took me away
I understand that there's some problems
And I'm not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can't apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
I?ll be the reason for your pain
And you can put the blame on me

You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

I'm sorry that it took so long to see
But they were dead wrong trying to put it on me
I'm sorry that it took so long to speak
But I was on tour with Gwen Stefani
I'm sorry for the hand that she was dealt
And for the embarrassment that she felt
She's just a little young girl trying to have fun
But daddy should of never let her out that young
I'm sorry for Club Zen getting shut down
I hope they manage better next time around
How was I to know she was underage
In a 21 and older club they say
Why doesn't anybody want to take blame
Verizon backed out disgracing my name
I'm just a singer trying to entertain
Because I love my fans I'll take that blame
Even though the blame's on you
Even though the blame's on you
Even though the blame's on you
I'll take that blame from you

And you can put that blame on me
And you can put that blame on me
You can put that blame on me
You can put that blame on me
And you can put that blame on me
And you can put that blame on me

I'm holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I'm hearing what you say
But I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down
But wait...

You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around and say..

That it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
(But that's nothing new)
Yeah yeah

I loved you with a fire red, now it's turning blue
And you say
Sorry like the Angel Heaven let me think was you,
But I'm afraid

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
Woahooo woah

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, a yeah

I'm holding your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground...

WHOO HOO~

im booked the next few days. :]
visit the hospital tmr morning;
ball in the afternooooooon;
chommmm chommmm at night;
mahjong the whole night;
swim the next morning; and ball again!

:DD

may go shopping on sunday, uh, maybe.

nway, have applied for relief teaching from the moe website alr. i cant imagine myself in a class of 30++ and sometimes teaching?! oh, that's so unlike me! ah, watever.

his holidays are coming!
:]:]:]

TALK TO ME ABOUT YOU.

:)

it's always like this.
talk and we'll end up like this. you never believe me.
so what is it that you want me to do now?
make you happy? why not make myself happy first.
or why not break your fists by hitting against the ground again?

you asked if i trusted you and believed you.
yes, i did.
you said i could trust you in many things.
and i believed.
you said you would always be there.
you said you wouldnt vent your anger on me again.
but you did again.
so was it me or you who were wrong this time?

maybe there isnt a right or wrong.
okay then, tell me what can i do for you, misteR?
you can forever choose to run away, to not care, but im sorry. i am not you.
and stop complaining about my friends.
because they care alot more than you do!

there are many things i thought that would actually come out of my mouth when i was so freakg angry this morning, but i did not say anyth. i cant imagine the consequences of saying those horrible things, and so i did not even say any to you. but you did, with your fucking attitude! i dont understand why each time this must happen.

now you ask for some time to cool off. and i tell you, you can have all your american time to cool yourself down! i am your girl, if you still remember! not any of your friends.


okay. enough of you. maybe it's me huh? so i was in the wrong for talking to you, and asking you what or where went wrong? so i was at fault for you not meeting your own high expectations? so i am supposed to feel sorry when you punched the ground hard with your fist? well, i suppose you like that alot, huh? you did that many times alr, i guess you must have felt great. i dont care if you see this or not, or if you felt my intended sacarsm. i dont pretty care much alr. go have all the american time you want. and 'i dont talk to angry people' was meant to cool you down. well, you never understood what i say. there's nothing much i can say then.

i should just shut up eh?

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