WOULD YOU BE THERE

I were Blue
Would you be there for me
And Whisper in my ears that's ok
Would you stand by me
Let me hold You tight
And say you love me one more time
If I Feel good
Would you slow dance with me
And touch my lips with tender loving care
Would you die for me
Would you run with me
And never look back
Would you be there to love to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one
To take my breath away
Would you be there to love to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one
To take my breath away
Would you be there

GREAT SINGAPORE SALE IS HERE!
HEHS.

i think i am childish. :(

anyway. 1 1/2 pp over for mid years! heh. hmmm. andand, it's the june hols now. well, finally can take a break! heh. oh well, i have so0 many things to do! haha. with my baby la, with NICOLETTE laaaa, with BALLERS la, and so on! whahahaha! (ah-hem, someone pls remind my im taking my a levels in less than 6months time.. -_-''')

came back from suntanning ytd at sentosa with my favourite MAN! hehs. okay. i dont know why, but the dogs at sentosa beaches were so blardy beautiful and adorable la. (baby, buy me TEN dogs and I"LL MARRY YOU! HEHS. )
then we headed to vivocity. and my MAN bought me a pair of earrings from forever21. HEH. and we walked ard. met persis and her mom at topshop. hello-ed, bye-d and we went off. bought my doughnuts and we headed for home. was dead-beat.

MAN, i dont know why i cried la. but you said u wouldnt scare me again the last time. and u wouldnt know how worrying and scary to worry for someone. you dont know what will happen the next moment, and life is so unpredictable. and i wont know which time is real and which is not. cant u just not joke on such things anymore?

:(:(:(

am meeting up with cheng ah ma and ah rou soon. for lunch at pepper. heh. so well, im dated this thursday! :) and NICOLETTE *(in case u cant spot ur name. heh.) meet up soon alright? i wanna go tanning with you! haha. and also u owe me thai express! haha. (okay, im just kidding la. its the thoughts that count. i love u for remembering me! heh.)

and my ballers, i wish t play ball with u guys again, and i seriously have to apologise for not being able to meet up on weekly basis. workload have been rather heavy and teachers aint giving me a break. well nway, do meet up soon, or maybe some outing?

and to ber and yaqi, sorry couldnt meet up last friday. too late la. was alr dated. heh. hmmm. maybe go sentosa one day soon? love u la!

i need to rest and take a break, and of course, its also time to start recovering for the a levels.
:(

i wish u could really be more understanding, somehow. communication is the best way to maintain any relationship, and i wish you know this.


girls never know how lucky they are
and guys would never realise how fortunate they are too.

20MAY

The Bottom Line
Try to be content with where you are in life right now -- it's a pretty plum spot!
In Detail
Your latest homerun should keep your competitive streak satisfied for a while, so try to be content with where you are in life right now -- it's a pretty plum spot! Your limitless ambition is admirable, but if you focus too much on what could be better, you won't be able to enjoy all the things that are working well right now! Things in your life are never going to be perfect ... and you shouldn't expect them to be. The ugly things in the world help you appreciate the beautiful things that much more.

haven blogged for quite some time, according to you. nway, i had bad bad dreams just last night. it was really horrible. and i cried after both dreams. :( well, its meaningless and pointless t talk abt it now.

the past week or days were really fast and furious! tests and tests and assignments and assignments everyday. i wish somebody would uds, and free me from all these, but how? finally, one last week before the school term closes and just a few more days to my mye first two papers. time is really flying, i must admit.

i didnt feel good for the past few days, really nt good. i dont know what i am to you. oh well, all the togetherness you claimed, and now? yes, i know it might be too late for me to realise it, but i find something's wrong, and you shouldnt do that to me. i can hardly talk t you these day. well, maybe you all. there's this awkwardness somewhere, from you, and i didnt know what to do. somehow, u made me feel guilty, but since i am not the one for you, (and for all you know, you have succeeded in hurting me ALOT!) perhaps u shud just tell me straight to the face one day.

kill the desire to meet, dash the hopes in me.

ive nv expected too much(from you, you all), maybe just the simple relationship. that's all. was that too demanding, or you being too selfish to give? tell me, and i wont bugg anymore.

nway, sports day was a blast? and that was when everything started to go wrong between me and you. went swimming with baby on saturday, and met sarah and sharon. oh. we had a super awkward hi-bye thing. and yeah. what weird stares and look ive got from you. had night study the same day till the next morning. was s tired i wish i cud have just died and save myself from all the 'things' u give.

gave last friday's lessons a miss. had eye infection and decided nt to attend school. visited the doc in the aftnn and it was kinda fast la. heh. baby accompanied thr, and we had our chee cheong fan and loh mai kai! ( plus barley, homemade one. [: ) went to study after that and headed to town. heh. i bought new earring. heh. well, i love it, but it's a lil sharp. :( walked ard town and blah blah blah. oh yea, we met rui fangg there! haha. okay, she skipped school too!

nway, im pleased with my ct2 results, though not really satisfied la. heh. but its hard for me to obtain like 2nd in class?! heh. u must be proud of me okay! you, you and YOU! (you-know-who) mid years coming and i wanna do well again, prays.

let my ugly and bad days be over quick,
and allow the pretty and good ones come soon.
shelovesyou.

so far so bad.
im dead beat. this whole week. =(

went out for movie w someone ytd. oh well. watched 200punds beauty and the songs were really nice. had dinner and home-d. oh yeah. went to my favourite shop! and i realised things are getting so much more expensive alr.. :(

you said women or maybe girls like me are v complicated. i thought guys like you are like that too. i dont know why i got you the shirt but i know you like it alot, and i want you to be happy. i dont see why i need a reason to give you a present, just like why i dont need a reason to give your cards and letters. thats it. simple and nice. honestly, i wish u can uds women more, or maybe just me la. sometimes things just get so bad, and you aint doing anyth abt it. you dont seem to be serious abt it anymore. you can just let it go and let it go.. there are somethings that i cant let go, yet u dont even know. how am i suppose to tell you every single thing, every single emotions of how i feel, like after u did something to upset me? am i like supposed to tell you yes, i am very sad, and you are the reason to it? and what would you do if i told you that? you would probly just say u dont know what to do and say and you will start all the ignoring-situations. can you pls at least think of more things to say? rather than keep saying you dont know what to say? and why is it you can have so much to say to everyone, but not me. am i so different?

i dont know.
but im okay.

and this is from qingyun's blog again!

“我一个人不孤单，想一个人才孤单。
when you are alone. you will not feel lonely.
it's when you start to think of a person.
loneliness fills your heart. "

- thoughts of the day -

{ Quick laughs }

very into magazines when i get into polytechnic. read all kinds of magazines. SHAPE to newsweek to CLEO to what not. as usual. in the middle of some boring work. i read CHOICES mag which belongs to my boss. at the session of -theQuirkyside-. i came across this short write-up.

MEN ARE LIKE...

Bananas..... the older they get, the less firm they are.
Popcorn.... they satisfy you, but only for a while.
Laxatives.... they irritate the crap out of you.
Commercials.... you can't believe a word they say.
Weather..... nothing can be done to change them.
Chocolate Bars... Sweet. smooth and they usually head right for your hips.
Mascara... they usually run at the first sign of emotion.
Lava Lamps... Fun to look at. but not very bright.
Snowstorms... you never know when they're coming. how many inches you'll get or how long it will last.
Blenders... you need ONE. but you're not quite sure why.

the one that sets me laughing out loud is this....

Parking Spots... all the good ones are taken. the rest are handicapped.haha.
eh. i never say i agree with what is written. but i hope it is something that makes you guys laugh. making your day.
(:

yet another post from yuzhen's blog.
(:

love is never easy.
falling in love is,
but sustaining that passion is another league of it's own.
i doubt your love,
because i am not constantly reassured.
sometimes i think of it to be lust.
i feel like i'm talking to myself.
having no replies from you and your constant avoidance of all serious topics.
i am irritated by the little things you forget or don't do.
"its the little things that count."
and you don't tell me what are you thinking, i have to guess.
you don't believe me when i tell you things,
and i feel this need to prove it to you.
is this love?

MY BIRTHDAY 05MAY 2007!

we lost. and that was the end. what could have done better could not be done anymore. i feel bad. but what to do. i feel that i am sucha letdown. sorry, team. it wasnt a good fight. and i couldnt say much of the WONDERFUL supporters we had!

rushed down to sbc and caught ny vs sa. cool game. i love to watch them play. :)

and then rushed home, and then down to the chalet. alright. baby and i had this bbq thing on the first night, just outside the room. yeah. and the first night was really short cos we were both tired. second day was worse. haha. slept till aftnn cos i had gastric flu, and then went to wild wild wet. yupps. it was kind of boring, i mean the things we played there. but it was really different cos it was you whom i was with. (:

met up with xiu and ty. thanks!

and then baby's friends came. and ppl start to come. well, was rather disappointed actually. my so called best friends didnt turn up! but i was glad cheng, rou and ah ma came! thank you for all the things you all have done. it was a nice board! 'll find a place and hang it up on my wall okay! heh. and to everyone who turned up at my chalet, thankyou YOU!

my ballers came as well. sarah, jungui, geraldine, eunice, vanessa, geokjoo. yupps. thanks!
some of my relatives came as well. and i felt i was sucha bad host! oh well, it was definitely v tiring to run up and down, here and there! :(:( still, it was my birthday.i love you! heh.

adeline; amelia; andre; belinda; cheng; cherie; cuien; clara; dennis; eunice; farahin; geraldine; geokjoo; huimin; huishi; huiwen; jacqueline; jungui; liwei; M; nicholas; NICOLETTE; nizar; persis; phuayhiang; peter; pricillia; qinling; rachel; rouhui; ruth; sarah; shiwen; sihui; tingsheng; tiying; 2vanessas; xiuyun; yaqi; yeeting; yingling; yuzhen; zijia andandand YOU!

alright, ppl who have made my birthday wonderful and special. well, actually i AM disappointed. :(

was out on tuesday studying and eating.

had a game with tpjc just ytd. 28-56. we won. i fell. bruise and bruises. happy yet disappointed on the other hand. i dont know why. just that way. ask yourself why. dont tell me.

back in school and celebrated ms r bday. yupps. the cake was of a piggs head! heh. and left for home. okay. gk sprained her ankle. speedy recovery pls!

i had a bad night nway, you dont have to know.
i have the feeling it doesnt even matter now.
it has been always like that.
you dont have to say a word.
you can be angry for all i care.

everytime i tried to speak, we would end up quarreling.
i have almost given up talking.
you said you would listen many many times ago, but you did not;
you said you would not be angry, and all of a sudden, you just flare up;
you said you would be there, where were you?
you said you dont want to be a burden, and what did you do?
you said i was important, who is?
you said i am above all, and you went away..

you always have the right to ignore me, but i do not;
you always have the right to be angry, but i do not;
you always have the right for everything..

sometimes i just feel that it really doesnt matter anymore.
sometimes i just feel that i dont matter at all,
and sometimes it just doesnt matter whatever shit happens to me.

i tried. i failed.
i dont feel good, how can i tell you, when the reason is you?
i am feeling blueeeee, reason being you, but how do i go abt letting u know?

emo-
[dont ask me why, it's just sometimes]


Rascal Flatts - What Hurts The Most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now
and then and just let 'em out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain
of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile
when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed,
livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words
that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do


THURSDAY!

sch's okay. had ep/ct period in the hall today. it was boring actually, but water was near. (: i almost couldnt breathe la! ask amelia. :] nway, i had 2mashed potato today! heh.

TOMORROW!

our last game, according to our self-conscious WENDY! heh. okay. it's like our last game? for first round. (: i hope we can get into second round, yet on the other hand, i wish to concentrate on my studies. well, we'll beat them tmr! [at least i hope] the players have no reason to continue if the leader quits, according to you. i am nt quitting, i want to win the game. it's a WANT. we will make history, and leave a legacy behind! go girls!

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